First Doc Appt

Today I had my first doc appt! I was able to see the heart beat! I am 10 weeks along! I am so excited!!!

I'M PREGNANT!!!!

I AM PREGNANT!!!

Why isn't all this enough?

I feel so guilty right now. I have just about everything I ever wanted. I am happily married to the most wonderful man I have ever known! I am working full time, getting paid very well, in a job where I am using my degree! I am living in a beautiful townhouse! I have new friends out here in Ohio!

But...

Something is missing...

I want a child so much. I want to share my wonderful life. I want my husband and I to start a family, however, no matter what we do, I haven't gotten pregnant yet.

The hardest part is having all of my friends pregnant. Seriously I have at least 7 friends pregnant right now or just had their babies.

I know we have only been married for 6 months now and I know I am only 22. I also know that money is tight, but I have felt that there is something missing. I feel this is what we need to do. I pray every month that I am pregnant and the disappointment is so overwhelming. I need comfort, but I am not sure where to go for that.

Tanya and Anthony's Wedding

New Job and all that comes with it

Well, last week I was offered the job as an ASL tutor. I have to get licensed this year, but I can work for one year on a temp license. Two days ago I also started grad school. After looking at the course expectations, I realized that I would not be able to take two classes, aka 6 credit hours, work full time, be a good wife, have a life, fulfill my church callings, and potentially be a mother all at the same time. Therefore, I have decided to only take one class this semester. I know that will mess up my financial aid, but I am sure this is what I need to do. I am so excited to start my new job!

Last week we had to take Harlie, my cat, back to the pet shop. It is a long story, but it is better all around. It was hard to give her up, but I know it is best.

Earlier this week I was in the hospital yet again. In July I had an allergic reaction that came back on Tuesday. It has been going on for awhile, but by Tuesday I couldn't handle it anymore so I had to go to the hospital again. They did the same thing they did last time...shot of steroids in the butt, and a regimen of steroids to clear up the reaction. I hope it doesn't come back again!

Welcome to the world!

My first nephew, Austin Andrew Haga, was born September 2, 2008 at 5:31pm!!! He was 7lb 15oz and 21inches long!!! I can't wait to be able to go to Illinois to see him!!! Congrats to my brother-in-law and sister-in-law!!!
Isn't he just adorable!!!

Understanding Fingerspelling

For all my ASL friends this is how they tells us to read fingerspelling. By catching the first and last letter.

Olny srmat poelpe can.

cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!