IT'S A BOY!!!

I had a second ultrasound yesterday and we found it we are having a boy!!! The due date is Aug 14th! We are so excited! The name we picked is Eli Benjamin!

First Doc Appt

Today I had my first doc appt! I was able to see the heart beat! I am 10 weeks along! I am so excited!!!

I'M PREGNANT!!!!

I AM PREGNANT!!!

Why isn't all this enough?

I feel so guilty right now. I have just about everything I ever wanted. I am happily married to the most wonderful man I have ever known! I am working full time, getting paid very well, in a job where I am using my degree! I am living in a beautiful townhouse! I have new friends out here in Ohio!

But...

Something is missing...

I want a child so much. I want to share my wonderful life. I want my husband and I to start a family, however, no matter what we do, I haven't gotten pregnant yet.

The hardest part is having all of my friends pregnant. Seriously I have at least 7 friends pregnant right now or just had their babies.

I know we have only been married for 6 months now and I know I am only 22. I also know that money is tight, but I have felt that there is something missing. I feel this is what we need to do. I pray every month that I am pregnant and the disappointment is so overwhelming. I need comfort, but I am not sure where to go for that.

Tanya and Anthony's Wedding

New Job and all that comes with it

Well, last week I was offered the job as an ASL tutor. I have to get licensed this year, but I can work for one year on a temp license. Two days ago I also started grad school. After looking at the course expectations, I realized that I would not be able to take two classes, aka 6 credit hours, work full time, be a good wife, have a life, fulfill my church callings, and potentially be a mother all at the same time. Therefore, I have decided to only take one class this semester. I know that will mess up my financial aid, but I am sure this is what I need to do. I am so excited to start my new job!

Last week we had to take Harlie, my cat, back to the pet shop. It is a long story, but it is better all around. It was hard to give her up, but I know it is best.

Earlier this week I was in the hospital yet again. In July I had an allergic reaction that came back on Tuesday. It has been going on for awhile, but by Tuesday I couldn't handle it anymore so I had to go to the hospital again. They did the same thing they did last time...shot of steroids in the butt, and a regimen of steroids to clear up the reaction. I hope it doesn't come back again!

Welcome to the world!

My first nephew, Austin Andrew Haga, was born September 2, 2008 at 5:31pm!!! He was 7lb 15oz and 21inches long!!! I can't wait to be able to go to Illinois to see him!!! Congrats to my brother-in-law and sister-in-law!!!
Isn't he just adorable!!!